At Last

Actually I should be taking at least one driving lesson but due to unexpected situation (dengue fever) I was forced to skip it.

Today going to have one at last and wish me luck =)

New Moon - New Beginning

Lenna My dear,
none of this is your fault, so stop apologising

now all i want to do is to get over it
definitely we still can be friends,
like in the past if you have any trouble you can still find me
i will still listen to you

The only I want to do now is to bury myself in work and try to get into college

Audrey, sorry for worrying you.
Appreciate your concern.

Now this is settle, better to enjoy the remaining CNY =D

This is something I bought today haha.
It's been out of stock for several month.
Bought it once it caught I eye lol
It is to mend my broken heart (haha, jokin jokin only, Lenna don't mind Xp)
one thing though, the price do really pack a punch. Ouch. I know for some of you this is nothing. Lol

I think I'll just follow his advice

Ask a question at yahoo answer!

That's what I get
One of the answer:

Silver, I'm going to be the bearer of bad news, here. This girl is clearly not interested. "busy" is clearly an excuse. Women have been conditioned by us men (especially the needy and desperate types) to never actually come right out and say "no". She thinks that she is sparing your feelings. What she does not realize is the level of confusion she is causing you. If I were you, I would stop asking her out and look elsewhere. This one is not worth the effort, and you are only hurting yourself and your chances with several good girls who WOULD give you the time of day by focusing on this one "fox". I am sure that she is beautiful, but remember this: if she is beautiful, SHE CAN HURT YOU if you let her. If she were truly interested, she could make at least one hour of room in her "hectic" schedule. But as it is, Silver, you're to her what the Cleveland Browns are to the NFL playoffs: on the outside...permanently.

When she tells you that she's busy, you should say, "Well, that's understandable. Call me when you're free." And then forget that she exists. After all, she's pretty much done the same to you.

Well well i guess i should not feel bad.
Just crapping around

Just trying to forget her yet.............

Anyway Chinese New Year are now and I should be happy. Save this things after CNY la.

Happy CNY =D

As I'm working my CNY won't be one week long.
Well at least still got holiday haha.

Some of my plan during CNY
Sun- go to grandma house for reunion dinner (although we always go there for dinner but the atmosphere will be really different hehe)
Mon- stop by my mom's company open day before go to grandma house bai nian, should be staying at home whole day like last year (ppl is coming though)
Tue- go back to Tanjung Sepak to meet with all the relative (really really miss them)
Wed- if Lenna at home then go her house bai nian haha
Thurs, Fri- working sob sob
Sat, Sun- go learn driving (i miss it twice thanks to denggi), might got chance to esther's (my cute mei) house bai nian

That's all for now. Stay tuned.
Everyone have fun =)

Let It Go

That's the only thing I can do I guess.

I wish to be loved by someone other than family (i mean special)
it is something that have felt to realise its existance
of course i won't want it to be anyone,
just that someone i really like.

Currently Unavailable

Having Dengue Fever

Primary Gathering

It's been a long time since the last gathering.
Really have a nice time there.
Shin Wee, thanks for summoning us Xp.

Yvonne and Lung Chuin (doesn't they look like a couple? lol)

Yee Kee and Soon Vin (she laugh like hell, and kesian Soon Vin la. Came right after working. Always our class songbird)

Him again lol. (8 years same class =)

The last time I remember she's like a gnome. Small and cute. Now become leng lui dy.

My favourite teacher. Thanks for your care and kindness. =)

Live very near me. Hi neighbour. Tee hee. (not really la)

My "Stepsister". She still single. Very cute rite? Anyone want to know her?

The 2nd Mock. The 1st one working. Haha

It shows how tall am I. Muahaha. Claim to be our class kononya

A Bit Tired From Everything

So yeah, tired about life, about what to in the future and so on so forth.
As for work, still have to do though. No work = no money. Then that will be too sad.

Sick

Been sick since yesterday night.
Major fever and headache haha.
Woke up several times in the night.

Feeling better now after seeing doctor =)

All I Want Is You

I wish you will love me as you do to your previous **
I can wait but its painful to see you sad.
Everytime you are sad, I blame my helpless self.
I wish I can take all your pain and suffer by myself.
Cus your smile is the only thing that keeps me going.
You are the one whom I love the most.

I may not know the reason why you don't accept me.
But I want you to know that I will love you always.
Lenna I Love You.

P.S : If she saw this don't know what her reaction but still curious Xp

Glad

Happy that you feel a lot better.
I always like the you that smile always =)

If..........

If you ever change your mind, and feels like having a relationship.
I will be there waiting.
Just tell me the first thing you've change your mind.
I always wanted you to get better things in life.
So whatever decision you made I will respect it.
But Baby, remember.
Whenever things get harder in life, I will be right beside you.
I will help you with in every way I could.

How Many Times Did I Ask?

1................... 2.................... 3.................... 4..................... 5.................... 6......................... 7....................... 8................. 9..................... 10.................... 11..................... 12.....................
don't know, lose count already.

Who am I to you?
Who am I to try forcing you have a date with you? But you are the one.......... Argh, never mind.
Who am I to try ask you to be together with me?
Who am I to bother you every minit second of my life and your life?
Who am I? A boyfriend? A best friend? A good friend? A normal friend? A familiar stranger.
In fact I'm nobody. NOBODY!!!!!!!!

I don't care if you all reader saw just ranting ranting and ranting. It's my blog remember. I will write what I feel like writing. Hmph.

Down, Confused, Conflict whatever u call it

她说她也喜欢我，可是为何不肯和我在一起呢。
我真的很乱。
先说声对不起，如果你看得明白。
这都不关你的错，是我不对。

Am I Hallucilating?

Dunno, I feel something wrong

My love for you I can't ignore;
My heart I need not let explore.
For one day my darling in time you will see.
Your love for me, it was meant to be.
Until that day I vow unto you;
To love you, be faithful and always be true.
Please my Love, I'll do the right thing.
Never let go, hold me under you're wing.
For I have no desire to venture away;
I'll never let go, I'm here to stay.
So as long as you love me, one day you'll well know.
Our love for each other, in time it will grow.

I Miss Her

Miss her very much.
That she busy with college and everything.
But its okay as long she still keep in touch with me

I Know

I know! I know!! I know!!! I know!!!!
She's not mine.
I love her. I want her to be happy.
As long she is happy, I don't mind being the only one sad.
I don't intentional try to own her. I'm really don't. For that I apologize.
Maybe I should leave her alone for few days.
But the watch runs slow without her in my life.

"All I wanted is for her to be happy"

First Official Salary

Finally get my salary today. =)

Apologize to Lenna. Really sorry. Dun mad kay?

Promise

Congrat to Lenna starting college today.

Don't know for some reason this word appear in my head.
Promise.

She will be very busy now on. Mayb I should stop disturbing so much.
I don't think she can go this few days. So I think I will just go shop for clothes myself. Maybe Mid Valley gua.
Thanks anyway for the good intention.

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Some Update

Some of the random pic. Last two week no time to upload pic. Now this is some update.

Pictures of my baby cousin. Isn't he adorable haha. My favourite. Forgot edit hehe. XP

Tang Yuan Tang Yuan Wo Ai Ni. Lol. My grandma specialty. Ate 4 bowl that day.

Me. Tee hee :)

That day go education fair with Lenna and her friend. Then his bro drop me off ts. Nice movie.

This one from Richard ^^

And this one from Eng Aun, Eng Hoe, Eng Lee's mom. Gosh 3 brothers haha

All the present I receive from Eng Hoe's church christmas party. I'm pretty surprise. Thanks alot =) even thought I'm not their church member

Meet a new friend but older than me alot. Erm not alot la, just 3 years haha. She give xmas card to everyone there.

Dream

Just now just wake up from a very sweet dream.
Dream about a date with her in somewhere I don't really recognize.
She's all mine for that day, she seem so happy.
That my frozen heart melts by her smile.


Quote:
After I wake up from dreaming about you,
I have the biggest smile on my face,
then it quickly fades away,
cause I realize that it was just a dream,
& you`re not really mine

我想她应该是有喜欢的对象吧

被拒绝

心痛

女生拒绝的方法

第一次告白就被拒绝了，和黄色HIGHLIGHT的有九成像
我暂时不想交男朋友——闪边啦！你还不到我心中帅哥标准的一半。
我从来没想过这个问题——这根本是不可能的嘛！别做白日梦啦。
我们还是当朋友好了——其实你还是有多余的利用价值。

­我想我真的不适合你——我根本就没有喜欢过你。

­我觉得我需要更多一点的空间——我不想看到你啦！

­其实你人很好——我不想跟你在一起。

­你人真的真的很好……真的——猪头，离我远一点。

我不想伤害我们之间的友谊——我们之间也永远只会有友谊。

­

你这样让我感到很尴尬——我无法强迫自己说我不想说的答案。

­我的心中牵挂着一个人——那个人是我特地虚设特意用来挡像你这种人的。

­朋友才是长久的，不是吗？——想当我男朋友，自己不照照镜子。

­我不适合当个情人——废话，没有人会适合当你情人的啦。

­你给我时间考虑——没给我时间，我怎么跑得掉……

我们的距离太远了——当个朋友就不错了，还想有的，没门。

­你的条件真的很好——你的条件真的还没好到我想要的地步。

­可是…这样好怪…真的很怪——你这丑八怪……怪成这样还想吃天鹅肉？

­我觉得男女之间是真的有纯友谊的——对，没错，我和你之间就真的只可能有纯友 谊。

­但你的温柔我会铭记在心的——情圣！光温柔是没用的，还需要钱！

­

我一直没有勇气接受你——看到你差点吓死……哪里还有勇气？

­你真的很可爱——你真的很幼稚。

­你真的是超级可爱耶——猪头！不要像小朋友一样黏啦！

­遇到你，总会让我重温童年的快乐——感觉就像阿姨遇到小弟一样。

­我觉得你很乖耶——穿得俗不拉基的，一看就知道跟你出去不好玩。

­我们应该给彼此一点缓冲时间——给你时间滚！你再不走，我真的会翻脸！

­

上次迟到真的很不好意思——先迟到给你看，下次我绝对不会到！

­

别人都说你条件不错耶——我从来没这样认为过。

­如果我们早一点认识就好了——说不定你会早点觉悟。

­别急嘛，我们可以先作朋友——我可以趁这个时候找男朋友。

我没勇气

每当我看见或传简讯，她那开心的样子。
我的勇气全都泄了。面对她我没办法对她告白。
我怕我向她告白后，这些快乐的时光永远离我而去。
我真的不知所措。有谁能够告诉我做么吗？

2009 First Post

I will upload photo later. Today very tired.
Happy New Year guys X)
and of course to my beloved Lenna. Xp